Sorry I haven't been around much, getting things finalized with the move across the post and such was a nightmare, and to add to that, my husband's now in NCO school, which means I'm getting irregular sleep what with having to get up at 4 most mornings to make sure he gets there on time.
He doesn't have his license yet, though as soon as he gets out of this stupid course, I'm taking him straight to the DMV... I've been out of the military too long to be able to handle sleep deprivation with anything approaching grace, and while I'm able to go back to sleep by 530, it's never as deep as it was before I was woken.
I'm also utterly alone in my house, and while I'm partly grateful for that, I'm not used to it. For two years I lived with my sister and her family, which meant that even when I was alone, I wasn't alone, what with someone else being in the house all the time. I miss her kids (even though I just saw them yesterday and the older two think it's high time I never come back, ever, which irks me to no end) and I miss being around other people. I'm going to have to get used to the fact that this is my house and that I need to be able to be alone again. Everything's too quiet, even if i have music or a movie on in the background.
We just got internet in the house a couple of days ago, and the speed of it is amazing, especially since we bought the speed-boost upgrade from the cable company and a speed-boost router. It's like being directly next to things I want to see instead of having to wait a few minutes like I used to.
I'm trying to make friends in the neighborhood, but I'm not a very social person in my personal, real-real life, and so it's hard for me to just find someone and become friends. Thankfully, the hubby's sergeant has a wife who's very nice and we're quickly becoming friends. And she makes amazing enchiladas.
I just feel like the house is too big for me, even though I'm used to living in bigger. this is only a two/three bedroom, and my sister's house is a five bedroom with a lot of space, but because it's just me and him here, it's more like this house is bigger than that one, if that makes any sense. I'm grateful for the breathing room, but also a little tired and sad because of it... I'm not sure that made sense.
I can tell from just today that I'm going to need to make myself go out and do things, to keep myself from dropping into a depression again. I like being alone, but I hate being by myself, and there's just not that many places to hang out in on this side of town, and I can't bring myself to head over to the other side or even just walk around Walmart (budget's an issue with that last one, since I actually have to worry about things like groceries and gas now).
So I guess what I'm saying is I'm too down to write (even though I'm entered into the
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and wow, this was a really long almost-whinging session. I need a life, apparently lol.
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