Wednesday, March 23rd, 2011 00:33
 Title: Facing Eternity
Author: [livejournal.com profile] bandearg_rois 
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Warnings: "death" fic, extreme angst
Summary: John "Reaper" Grimm must once again leave someone he loves, though this time, he loved by choice.
Author's Note: This is totally unbetaed, written at Midnight. You have been warned.

This would be the hardest thing John has had to do since he fought alongside and watched men he'd considered brothers die in a veritable Hell. He had been Leonard McCoy for 12 years, longer than he'd spent in any other identity, and it was time to move on. He fingered the vial of C24 in his pocket, but didn't make any other move to pull it out. He had no reason to use it.

He looked down at the PADD, and then out the window, staring at the San Francisco skyline. He didn't want to write this letter, had never had to write one before, but this time, he couldn't just slide out of his current life. He was too well-known now, to too many people that had too much power. He continued to stare for a few minutes, before finally picking up the stylus.

Dear Jim,

This isn't how I want to say this, but face to face isn't exactly an option. I need you to know that I love you, I've loved you since the day we met on that god-forsaken shuttle. Part of me wishes we could have been more, but it's not in the cards. I have to go away, and I'm going to ask you not to look for me. I won't be anywhere you can think to look.

Thank you, for being my best friend, really the only one I've ever had, and know that I treasure that, and it will stay with me to the end of my days. Please tell the Hobgoblin that if he goes looking for me, he'll get a nasty surprise. And apologize to Nyota. I was supposed to help her with something, and I never got the chance.

I love you, Jim Kirk, even though you're an infant brat who drove me up the bulkhead more often than not. Please, move on, find someone, do your version of settling down. I don't want you to end up alone and unhappy. I'll miss you, kid.

Bones

The PADD was untraceable, a throwaway he'd had stashed for years, waiting for a need to use it. He sent the message from an anonymous account, hours later, from a cafe across town from his apartment. And then he finalized his plans. The next morning saw one Conor Grimm heading out on passenger freight to Corinthium IX, one planet the Enterprise would never visit, and a twisted, burned out heap of metal with Leonard McCoy's DNA inside of it at the bottom of a ravine a few hours outside of San Francisco.

And something John didn't know: one man, a blond human, approximately 30 years old, clutched his PADD in a white-knuckle grip, silent tears sliding down his face.
Wednesday, March 23rd, 2011 05:42 (UTC)
OW MY HEART (but in a good way)

Like the take on the whole C24 trope, it's a shame it ended so sadly!!!! :'( *hugs Jim and Bones*
Wednesday, March 23rd, 2011 05:49 (UTC)
Boy are you fast!

I was just feeling a little down and this somehow cheered me up.

Thanks for reading!
Wednesday, March 23rd, 2011 06:23 (UTC)
Oh my heart. This was painful but really lovely. And if my heart already in fragments from Bones' letter it would have been by that last line. :( Loved it!
Wednesday, March 23rd, 2011 06:25 (UTC)
Thank you for reading and sorry for shattering your heart...
Wednesday, March 23rd, 2011 07:00 (UTC)
Ouch. But very well written. Thanks for posting this.
Wednesday, March 23rd, 2011 13:06 (UTC)
Thanks for reading! ♥
Wednesday, March 23rd, 2011 07:27 (UTC)
Q.Q

WHY DURN YA'LL?!?!?!

Winnie chose to live her life and not wait for Jesse/drink the water and now John is leaving Jim to live and die as is proper even if it is WERY, WERY SAD! I lurve you and your wonderful tales, but the ANGST. It killlllllls us.

Q.Q Good story, bb.

(It's early in the AM here and I just got done making a doll for an art class. This may or may not be entirely lucid.)
Wednesday, March 23rd, 2011 13:07 (UTC)
Thanks!

(and it's okay, I wasn't quite lucid when I wrote it)
Wednesday, March 23rd, 2011 08:47 (UTC)
ohmygod ... *clutches heart* So beautiful and descriptive, in so few words. ABSOLUTELY LOVED IT!!!
Wednesday, March 23rd, 2011 13:08 (UTC)
Thank you! I wanted to try out the side of the coin where Bones doesn't stay
Wednesday, March 23rd, 2011 12:01 (UTC)
*cries*
Wednesday, March 23rd, 2011 13:08 (UTC)
*hands you a tissue* Thank you for reading?
Wednesday, March 23rd, 2011 19:34 (UTC)
Oh my heart. *sobs*
Wednesday, March 23rd, 2011 21:09 (UTC)
sorry for your heart! *hands over bones to help fix it* Thanks for reading!
Wednesday, March 23rd, 2011 22:19 (UTC)
You really know how to break a person, don't you?! *sobs*
Wednesday, March 23rd, 2011 22:33 (UTC)
I do try. Thank you for reading! *hands you a tissue* good thing I bought these e-tissues, huh?
Wednesday, March 23rd, 2011 22:40 (UTC)
*blows*

Why do I think they're going to be very useful when reading your fic ?? ;)
Wednesday, March 23rd, 2011 22:59 (UTC)
well, at least my angsty ones... *needs to write something happy to counteract*
Wednesday, March 23rd, 2011 23:41 (UTC)
Why yes, yes you do!! :)

BTW - do you mind if I friend you - I can't believe I haven't done it already!
Wednesday, March 23rd, 2011 23:47 (UTC)
I can't remember whether or not I friended you yet but go ahead!
Thursday, March 24th, 2011 00:20 (UTC)
Yay - consider it done :)
Thursday, March 24th, 2011 02:22 (UTC)
*wibbles, wibbles, BAWLS* :'( it's all just a vicious joke, right? RIGHT?! poor boys. very fitting, given the situation. but. i wants happy boys!
Thursday, March 24th, 2011 02:45 (UTC)
Hm, I'll get back to you on happy boys (like a little later tonight, as in 20 minutes from now) but *hands you a tissue* thank you for reading!
Thursday, March 24th, 2011 02:52 (UTC)
:O *gasps* really?! *hugs, dances, smishes* yay! :D
Thursday, March 24th, 2011 04:36 (UTC)
Gah ! Just break my heart why don't you? ;) This is beautifully done, so sad and so wonderful. ♥
Thursday, March 24th, 2011 04:43 (UTC)
*hands you a container for your heart* Thank you for reading! ♥
Friday, March 25th, 2011 14:41 (UTC)
Wow! This part of the Star Trek fandom was unknown to me. I even had a little trouble to know who is this "Reaper" but I loved it.
I go to see if I can find more fics with this crossover.

But you had no one who was called "Reason For Being Dangerous"?
I found this on bottom_mccoy, but was not available in our Livejournal .
Where can I find it? I'm on a mirror!verse fixation now.

Tanks!
Sunday, March 27th, 2011 15:13 (UTC)
Finally getting around on commenting to tell you just how much I loved this! Which is a lot, obviously. =D
Monday, March 28th, 2011 16:48 (UTC)
I'm all wibbly.