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bandearg_rois: (invalid-wicked_jade)
Thursday, July 14th, 2011 15:18
Sorry I haven't been around much, getting things finalized with the move across the post and such was a nightmare, and to add to that, my husband's now in NCO school, which means I'm getting irregular sleep what with having to get up at 4 most mornings to make sure he gets there on time.

He doesn't have his license yet, though as soon as he gets out of this stupid course, I'm taking him straight to the DMV... I've been out of the military too long to be able to handle sleep deprivation with anything approaching grace, and while I'm able to go back to sleep by 530, it's never as deep as it was before I was woken.

I'm also utterly alone in my house, and while I'm partly grateful for that, I'm not used to it. For two years I lived with my sister and her family, which meant that even when I was alone, I wasn't alone, what with someone else being in the house all the time. I miss her kids (even though I just saw them yesterday and the older two think it's high time I never come back, ever, which irks me to no end) and I miss being around other people. I'm going to have to get used to the fact that this is my house and that I need to be able to be alone again. Everything's too quiet, even if i have music or a movie on in the background.


We just got internet in the house a couple of days ago, and the speed of it is amazing, especially since we bought the speed-boost upgrade from the cable company and a speed-boost router. It's like being directly next to things I want to see instead of having to wait a few minutes like I used to.


I'm trying to make friends in the neighborhood, but I'm not a very social person in my personal, real-real life, and so it's hard for me to just find someone and become friends. Thankfully, the hubby's sergeant has a wife who's very nice and we're quickly becoming friends. And she makes amazing enchiladas.

I just feel like the house is too big for me, even though I'm used to living in bigger. this is only a two/three bedroom, and my sister's house is a five bedroom with a lot of space, but because it's just me and him here, it's more like this house is bigger than that one, if that makes any sense. I'm grateful for the breathing room, but also a little tired and sad because of it... I'm not sure that made sense.

I can tell from just today that I'm going to need to make myself go out and do things, to keep myself from dropping into a depression again. I like being alone, but I hate being by myself, and there's just not that many places to hang out in on this side of town, and I can't bring myself to head over to the other side or even just walk around Walmart (budget's an issue with that last one, since I actually have to worry about things like groceries and gas now).

So I guess what I'm saying is I'm too down to write (even though I'm entered into the [livejournal.com profile] ficfinishing  round this month) and I want to start on my BB (I realize that July's a little late, but when I'm in the mood, I write a hell of a lot at a time) but I can't seem to get the energy. I hate being a social creature and yet not liking to socialize, and it's affecting everything else. I should get up and clear out our living room (all of our Magic cards are everywhere since we're building new decks based on the Pre-launch for the newest set that's coming out in August) and start making headway on the spare room, setting up the other tv and such, but again, the energy is lacking.


and wow, this was a really long almost-whinging session. I need a life, apparently lol.
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Wednesday, June 29th, 2011 15:20
I just have no one else to talk to about this that isn't either hostile or doesn't already know what I'm going to say before I say it. It's getting frustrating and not a little stressful...
TL;DR Seriously, this is a whinging session of the highest magnitude. Skip me. )
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Monday, May 2nd, 2011 00:50
Okay, so you've all probably seen it already, but I just watched Inception for the first time tonight, and will probably have to watch it a few more times to understand everything I want to understand about it. Below the cut is a question about the end. So if you HAVEN'T seen it, don't worry about what's under the cut. Seriously don't, because it will confuse you mightily.


WTF mates? )
Okay, onto general squeeage. Arthur and Eames belong together forever, no doubt in my mind whatsoever, they bicker like... well, like Jim and Bones, which makes their relationship perfect to me.

As to whether I will write something based on Inception, that's up in the air since I have the [livejournal.com profile] help_japan  fic for [livejournal.com profile] elfsausage, An update for [livejournal.com profile] ficfinishing and my Codex story, an update for A Model Love Story (might there actually be sex? Who knows?), an update for my I'm a Doctor Not a... series, which i might have to rewrite altogether because I'm hating parts of it now...

And an update for absolutely every other thing I have going on (which is like 30 things, I'm a procrastinating idiot I know), and getting everything ready for when Patrick comes home at the end of the week.

My list is very long and very annoying right now, but it will hopefully taper off here soon. Hopefully. Really.
bandearg_rois: (fml-wicked_jade)
Saturday, April 30th, 2011 01:56
So my hubby FB-messaged me earlier in the day, asking me to make sure my phone is on and charged (bad me can't find it right at this moment, but fear not, it'll turn up) for next Wednesday. Me, automatically assuming that he'd forgotten our anniversary what with him having been overseas from four days after we got hitched, asked if he was coming home (I'm a wife, and in that sense I learned from my mother. I'm not reminding him of something like that; it's his job to figure it out).

He immediately (and this was late into his night) replied that no, he wanted to be able to talk to me on our anniversary and make the plans to celebrate it once he got home the next day or the day after. So color me surprised, only I shouldn't have been. He made it a point to call me twice on my birthday, close to when it started, at about 3 am my time, and again that night so that he caught me on my birthday where he was and here. Also, I griped about him not remembering Valentine's Day, and he called soon after that. *makes notes to amend that post*

so I'm not sure why I thought he'd forget this. But I have a little bit bigger fish in my pond right now. We have nowhere to live (the paperwork that we needed to have to get a house immediately never got turned in) since my brother refuses to let my husband stay here because of some issues from earlier in his tour, and then there's the no-car situation, and fun thing is that my brother is working, my sister has finals all that week. And we need to go an hour and a half walk away from this house, let alone where we end up in order to turn in the paperwork. And we don't have a lot of money. I'm planning a budget, but that doesn't help much when all we've got to our names is a broken down couch and a nice queen size bed, and enough dishes for two, and silverware for 8 (everyone keeps giving me silverware). I've been promised a set of pots and pans when my 'sister' talks her husband into getting a new set for their house. The pots and pans aren't broken or anything, and they still cook well, my friend just has issues with using 'old' things.

Oh, and my sister's giving me a recliner and possibly a loveseat. Oh, and we have a tv, some bookshelves, and a few plastic dressers. We're just missing the place to live and put all that stuff.

And I'm not even sure what this is about anymore, since I'm going on 22 hours of being awake, so I'm going to go to bed and dream about Cartiere (I can't do the accent thing on the end) tiaras and Roman slave outfits. Before you ask, no, the two are not connected in any way (who am I kidding? the tiara has to do with porn and so does the outfit, so I guess they are connected) and yet will probably both show up in the same dream, most likely on the same person. Ta for a lovely night, and call me if anyone interesting shows up.

Out.
bandearg_rois: (die-wicked_jade)
Friday, April 8th, 2011 11:03
Okay so this post was originally meant to be posted last night, but I ended up waiting to see if I would calm down. Thankfully I have, but it still burns. Here lies an epic rant:
TL;DR: Epic Rant of Epic Pissed-offness )
bandearg_rois: (die-wicked_jade)
Friday, March 25th, 2011 07:20
Okay, so I need to vent:

TL;DR Whinging from the sleep-deprived and tired of children. )
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Thursday, January 20th, 2011 03:09
Okay, I'm only two episodes into the second season of this wonderfully British show... and all I can think about is threesomes. Is that terrible? Though some of that is from my extensive research into the original history and myth of Camelot and King Arthur and Queen Gwenuivere, and of course, Merlin.

But yes, I think my first fic for this fandom, rather than the thinky introspects, is going to be a thinky, introspective UST threesome. Probably no porn, because my mind hasn't gotten quite that far into the depravity yet, but...

Yes, Season 2 is giving me thoughts.


So pretty much, yes, I've been sucked into the fandom... Which is weird, because though I love it to pieces, Doctor Who never inspired me to write anything... must just be this one. Oh well.

anyway, ta, I'm going to dream of Arthur/Gwen/Merlin